Lilith Fair Kid

Today her name is Tuesday

She looked at me so sweet

Just as I tried to walk away

She settled at my feet

Tomorrow she’ll be motherhood

Or standards I have set

And when I say I’m done with her

She’ll say she’s not done yet

She’s sinking deeper on your chest

She’ll always keep you from your best

So have another drink

It’ll work for a minute 

But you’ll never lift her off

If your heart isn’t in it, am I-

Gonna die by the elephant

Take a deep breath 

And it catches in your rib cage

You’re just a puppet on the stage

Paint your face on and

Stay in line for the elephant

My heart is mine or the elephant’s

And I lose this battle every time I try to push her off alone

Today her name is guilty

The heaviest I know

I told her I don’t need her

So why does she need me so

And in the coming days she’ll tell me

Nothing’s as it seems

And the future I had planned for

Was just lies and silly dreams

So I’ll have another drink

It’ll work for a minute 

But I’ll never lift her off

Cause my heart isn’t in it, am I-

Gonna die by the elephant

(Gonna die by the elephant)

Take a deep breath 

And it catches in your rib cage

You’re just a puppet on the stage

Paint your face on and

Stay in line for the elephant

My heart is mine or the elephant’s 

And I lose this battle every time I try to push her off alone

Won’t somebody call her home?

Somebody call her home

Somebody call her home

Somebody call her home

(Emily Popli:)

I just want your attention

I just want your touch

Is that more than you can give?

Am I asking too much?

I just want you to want me

Does that make me vain?

Why does even telling you

Feel so much like pain?

Is the magic gone?

Do you feel the same?

Is there something wrong?

Is it me to blame?

I’m not giving up

I’m willing to fight

Let’s sit down and talk it out

If it takes all night

We started on fire

We were burning so bright

And things might have dimmed after all this time

But baby, we’re still alight

(Matt Giraud:)

Am I not your everything?

Am I not enough?

I didn’t know honesty 

Was gonna be so rough

And I’m doing my best

But There’s still miles to go

I don’t know what you want from me

Please let me know

I’ve been trying so hard, I just want you to see

Everything you’re looking for is still within me

(Both:)

Look in my eyes and just tell me this will be okay

I’m not giving up

I’m willing to fight

Let’s sit down and talk it out

If it takes all night

We started on fire

We were burning so bright

And things might have dimmed after all this time

But baby, we’re still alight

Ooooh, and just a little bit of oxygen could set us ablaze

Ooooh, and just a little bit of time and space could help us grow closer while we’re in this phase

I think that’s all it is

A sliver of time

Time where I’m always yours

And you’re always mine

I’m always yours

You’re always mine

I’m always yours

You’re always mine

(Matt Giraud:)

I’m not giving up

I’m willing to fight

Let’s sit down and talk it out

If it takes all night

(Both:)

We started on fire

We were burning so bright

And things might have dimmed after all this time

But baby, we’re still alight

We’re still alight

Your truth swayed and it bent till it broke into thousands of lies

I think you’d believe yourself now looking into my eyes

You say you’re a victim as though it absolves you of blame

You put on so many faces I barely remember your name

You seem to love the bitter taste of blood if it’s mine

For some reason it just drives you crazy to learn that I’m fine

But I felt nothing

I could feel nothing after all that you’ve said

Couldn’t feel love

Couldn’t feel hate

I was just numb

No escape

You ripped out stitch after stitch one by one*

And now I’m just done

Do you ever feel anything other than anger and hurt

Do you count on your Bible alone to tell you what you’re worth

How can you feel righteous and also be seething with hate

You could apologize yesterday and it’d already be late

You made me question if all I’ve been through was real

So I cut you out and now you wanna know how I feel

I don’t feel nothing

I don’t feel nothing but sorry for you

Don’t feel love, don’t feel hate

Since you’re gone, I’ve been great

And I feel sorry for you

But that’s all

I don’t feel nothing

I don’t feel nothing but sorry for you

I don’t feel love, I don’t feel hate

Since you’re gone, I’ve been great

And I feel sorry for you

But that’s all

So don’t you dare call

There’s at least 3 kinds of love, but there might be billions

Some permanent, some burnouts and some fill-ins

And they say there’s other fish in the sea, there’s millions,

But not for me

The first time I saw your face I knew what love was

I think the celebrated poets of old wrote of us

They didn’t know our minds but they knew our hearts and together, they’re a work of art, you see

I don’t know what tomorrow will bring

Or how everyday hereafter will come to pass

But I know our love is bigger than this lifetime

Because an ocean doesn’t fit in a water glass

How do you see right through my words to what my heart means

How can we be so far apart, and you still make me feel seen

And the leaves may fall around us, but we’re evergreen, you and me

Oh, this fight is so little

In the scheme of our life, it’s so little

We aren’t built out of straw, nothing so brittle that can’t take the wind

Let it blow

I’m not letting go

I don’t know what tomorrow will bring

Or how everyday hereafter will come to pass

But I know our love is bigger than this lifetime

Because an ocean doesn’t fit in a water glass 

I think if you wrote down the words

You tend to say without a care

After a while they’d start to look like knives

It’s easier to feel

That none of this is real

Like maybe it’s a game instead of lives

Some people really love you

Trying everything they know

To help you see what’s really on their heart

So soften that stone face

Because to get out of this place

They’ll cheer you on but it’s you who’s got to start

You’re burning alive with rage

No one’s on your same page

You’re broken, and until you realize

Your locus of control

Is there inside your soul

The world will always be against you in your eyes

We’re all looking for love

We’re all looking for warmth

And we think we’ll get it fanning our own flame

But the sun is overhead

Wondering why we don’t break bread

And we’re so small we all look just the same

You’re burning alive with rage

No one’s on your same page

You’re broken, and until you realize

Your locus of control

Is there inside your soul

The world will always be against you in your eyes

If you ever decide that the blame that you’ve tried to displace might be something you share

Or you bury that hatchet you’re carrying deep in the ground

If you muster the courage to have some humility and reckon with the girl in the mirror

If anyone left unscathed by you can track me down

I guess I’ll be around, I guess I’ll be around

I’m not myself today

The heart I pride myself on being full of love’s withered away

I’m just a shadow, of what you need

And you’re enough, and you are everything and I hate that I can’t be

All that for you, all the time

To fill your cup I’ve got to go fill up the one that’s mine

And I know- you need me here

I’ll come right back, when my head’s clear

I’m going through some shit again

So I’m going up to Michigan

I’ll be home soon

It’s always sunny there,

I mean, I know the weatherman and that’s impossible, but it feels right, I don’t care

And their left turns are weird

But I’ve pulled some stranger things in Illinois, I think my record’s finally cleared

And man, the music there

I could be crying at 6:45 and by 7:30 I’m alive again

And I know it’s all a fantasy

It isn’t you, it’s only me

When I’m feeling like this again

I’ve got family up in Michigan

I’ll be home soon

And I’ll feel better

I always do

I’ll be a better version of me to take care of you

And I love you

I always will

But sometimes I sprout some little cracks I’ve got to fill

I didn’t know a heart could grow so big and wide

Till mine split, grew legs and hoofed it to the other side… of Indiana

Now I’m thinking bout friends I miss again

So I’m going up to Michigan

I’ll be home soon